Sometimes you watch in the movies people just waiting and gathering around a person bedside for the person to pass on and you wonder how true it.
Well... I would say that it a terrible experience. Yesterday I was at SJMC because my cousin call me to say that her father turn for the worse. When I reach SJMC he was still in ICU. When I went him to see him he can still respond. He can still hold on to his daughther hand and dont want to let go. When I touch his hand it feels very cold but I can see his respond. When I talk to him i can still some respond from him.
Later after lunch I went to see him again he seems abit worse but still responding. Later they move him to the normal ward. he was still responding. When my sister came, his son tell him that "Ah Mei is here". He say "MMM". So my sister said she got a tick in attendance list. Hey I got a nod of his head. haha... My cousin Patrick said my uncle complain pain on his finger coz of the monitor. So he change his finger for the monitor.
Most of the time I have to walk out of the room because to see him struggling is very painful.
He is on oxygen so not sure whether he is awake or asleep. The funny part is that he keep pulling on his shirt. He keep trying to pull his shirt down and managed to pull it down. Everytime we pull his shirt up, he will pull it down again. His hand keep moving (I don't think he is aware). Sometimes it look like he putting his hand up to ask a question. Sometimes he is putting his hands one on top of another. I ask Grace my cousin is he awake or asleep. We also dont know.
This morning at 5 am when I see him.. he was not responding. I call him loud loud he was not responding. he not able to grip anybody hand.
It is quite sad just waiting. God please let him pass peacfully and let him know that we are family and that we will keep in contact with his daughther and help her thru this.