LRT Rides

Lately I been taking alot of lrt ride. Esp when I have to go KL in afternoon, it so easy for me to hop on the lrt, take it to town and then take it back later to collect my car. rather than go thru the jam.

Sometimes on ride you see funny things. Today there was this lady running to hop on to the station just as the door was closing. Wow she made the train but then one of her shoe was left at the station. I wanted to laugh coz she was standing there with only one shoe she try to look cool. I wanted to take a pic but then my phone camera make a sound.. so i think it was rude.

The question is what should you do... Stop at the next stop and go retrieve the shoe or go to where you suppose to go.

Rest in Peace Ah Pak

My uncle has passed on about 4:20 pm yesterday. He has gone to a better place where he is back to his normal self and that he can enjoy all his food again and is pain free.

We will miss him but will have to treasure our memories.

The Waiting

Sometimes you watch in the movies people just waiting and gathering around a person bedside for the person to pass on and you wonder how true it.

Well... I would say that it a terrible experience. Yesterday I was at SJMC because my cousin call me to say that her father turn for the worse. When I reach SJMC he was still in ICU. When I went him to see him he can still respond. He can still hold on to his daughther hand and dont want to let go. When I touch his hand it feels very cold but I can see his respond. When I talk to him i can still some respond from him.

Later after lunch I went to see him again he seems abit worse but still responding. Later they move him to the normal ward. he was still responding. When my sister came, his son tell him that "Ah Mei is here". He say "MMM". So my sister said she got a tick in attendance list. Hey I got a nod of his head. haha... My cousin Patrick said my uncle complain pain on his finger coz of the monitor. So he change his finger for the monitor.

Most of the time I have to walk out of the room because to see him struggling is very painful.

He is on oxygen so not sure whether he is awake or asleep. The funny part is that he keep pulling on his shirt. He keep trying to pull his shirt down and managed to pull it down. Everytime we pull his shirt up, he will pull it down again. His hand keep moving (I don't think he is aware). Sometimes it look like he putting his hand up to ask a question. Sometimes he is putting his hands one on top of another. I ask Grace my cousin is he awake or asleep. We also dont know.

This morning at 5 am when I see him.. he was not responding. I call him loud loud he was not responding. he not able to grip anybody hand.

It is quite sad just waiting. God please let him pass peacfully and let him know that we are family and that we will keep in contact with his daughther and help her thru this.

Life is like that

I think I have reach the point in my life where my older relatives are getting on in years. Therefore most of them have also become sick and some have already passed on.

I remember long long time ago my uncle passed away which was abt 20 years and everyone else was still healthy. During last 8 years also so I have lost my grandmother and year later Tai Koo (my father sister) and then one of my mom brother-in-law.

About two years ago my Ah Pak (my father bro) was diagnose with throat cancer and we thought that thru chemo he was recover. Just last week my cousin sms me to tell me that he Dad has high fever as she was going overseas for a biz trip can we drop by to see my ah Pak coz he was having high fever and he was feeling down.

We (the whole clan) went to see him he look rather thin and not well. But he could still walk but not talk much. He also don't feel like talking to us. Then just this Friday my cousin call me again to tell me that her Dad was admitted to SJMC (*sigh*) because his face is swollen and they think the cancer has return. Went to see him on Sat.. he seem so weak and frail. He was still in the normal ward.

Last night or rather early this morning my cousin called me to tell me that they have moved her father to ICU and she is on her way to hospital now. His condition remains critical. I think in our heart we are preparing ourself. I think back to all the interactions that I have with my uncle. I think I can say that I did the best that I could for him.

This also make me think about my own parents. I think that as children at the end of their time said that we did the best that we could to love them and take care of them. To me it more important to show the care and love for our parents when they are alive.